Wednesday, March 9, 2011


Wow. I am typing this into my IPhone as I digest Taco Bell before I head off to church. I am at 20% power, so I will have to do this quickly, rather than write it in a Word document and cut and paste it into my blog. But I have found myself living on the edge, in my own special way, a lot lately.(guilty admission: I just came out to my car to plug my phone into the car charger.) anyway, the point is that things have not been going my way lately. Things that I thought were a sure thing are now completely different.and at the same time I keep hearing that God calls us to do things we can do only on His power, which really messes with my desire for control.

Philippians 4:6 tells me to chill out, God has it totally under control. He's got this."prayer abd supplication with thanksgiving" are the words He wants to hear out of my what if I do something crazy and totally trust God? And pray for everything, rather than trying to figure out how to do it on my own? That would mean I have to take a risk. And feel unsafe. But it's a perceived unsafe because I am actually okay. Wow. Scary thought.
However, with the events of the last few months, I think I would rather trust someone who knows the end, rather than me, who can't see past today.
God, I want to trust you. Please take me your way, but can you please show me as much of the way as I can see and not lose sight of who you are? I know you like to work with me on a last-minute basis, do please be mysecurity and my Jehovah-Jireh. I think you need to bring me my kinsman-redeemer, so I thank you for bringing that into my life. You are so good and I'm sorry my mind is so finite that I can't grasp you who ate in your entirety. Help me to follow.

If you have ever had thoughts like this, let me encourage you to take a risk. In the most sure thing.