Your life is a composite of so many things -- it could include kids, a job, aging parents, health issues, husband issues, your own wants, dreams of vacations, and, oh, by the way, E is the letter of the day because it starts the word early, which is when you need to leave because that's where the gas gauge needle is pointing to. Crazy.
Aaaahhhhhh! Really? Is this what it is? Somehow this is not the perfect life I envisioned as a 20 year old! I thought that I would get married, have kids, have a cute house, and live a life like I saw in a lifetime of Southern Living magazines.
Well, I'm here to tell you that marriage is not a magic key to happiness, kids grow up and want to have their own lives, and food stylists do not come to your house every day.
The truth is that God is here and He has a plan. The truth is that we are called to deny ourselves (what? deny? I'm more about the getting....) and take up the cross of Christ
So in the path of my life, I have developed a close relationship with God that is such a joy. I enjoy praise and worship so much, just because I love talking about the names of Jesus and the cross and the blood and how God cares for us. It's because I have walked paths of faith completely blind that I know the character of God, and when you truly know what God is like, when you have seen that glimmer of "I AM," then you can't help but praise His name.
However, "perfect" is not a part of my life. In no way, shape, form, or manner is anything perfect. In fact, I am given to emotional rollercoasters that are not fun. To counteract this, God gave me a thing that I want to share with you. It's a truth journal. It's got two columns. When I get all bent out of shape because my thoughts are beating me up, I write down in one column how I feel. That is the "how I feel" column. The other column is labeled "the truth is..." and it is usually the exact opposite of the feelings column.
So, for example, if I am having a down day because I am single with absolutely no prospects, I may write something like, "I am never getting married and all my friends are getting engaged or dating great guys." Then I could write in the truth column, "Sharon got engaged and Friend X has a date for Valentines. That is far from 'all my friends.' And never is a bad word to use because I can't know what God has for me." Maybe I'll throw in a verse like "Be still in the presence of the Lord, and wait patiently for Him to act." – Psalm 37:7a
I would highly recommend starting a truth journal. God didn't create us to be a maelstrom of emotion that constantly keeps us in a state of non-peace. I think you will be pleasantly surprised!